Hi, I'm new here.
Posted: Sat Oct 08, 2016 12:24 am
Hi, I'm Kayla, and from the U.S. Have recently came across Divine Truth forum and videos. I study Swedenborg, and a lot rings true here. I was brought up Catholic, but felt something was off, and Swedenborg's writings rang more true to me. I've been very interested about learning about God since at least three. Have also had a lot of trauma throughout my life.
Really am trying to make love of God, and others a main priority. Think I'm doing good with that often, but wonder since I continue to have problems with the past. I've gotten many Dx that were completely wrong from mental health, but did have symptoms of Tourette's from a young age. I've wondered recently a lot if it's spiritually related. In the past I was made to feel guilty over certain aspects, but I no longer believe them. I also have had wondered about death, and the after life before being told about them. Got the sense most people didn't think death might be better. This was all probably at three. I did ask just what death was, and was told about heaven. Which I falsely assumed my thoughts of wanting to die, would be more accepted. My mom was terrified, when I said I wished to go there right then and there. Thinking I knew I shouldn't have said anything back then. Still saddens me a lot to look back on. However, from there I was able to ask questions about God, and life. My mom even brought a book based off the bible with pictures, and easier vocabulary.
Despite studying, and what I believe to be understanding, and often times even improvement, seems I'm still stuck in my past. Have reached out a bit the Green Party, and know could probably get a job there, and have another opportunity from a personality profiling company that reached out to me. However, things haven't worked out. Stuff involving family, or the meantal health system seemed to have ruined past work opportunities. I don't want to start what I can't finnish. Even as a vollentear for the Green Party I worry about this. I do think theses could be opportunities to let people better experience the gift of free will, and help people live up to their full potential. However, I still feel stuck for many reasons. I'm hoping for a good discussion though, that will give me new perspective. Think I'm in need of that. Heard some things that may really help me too. Appreciate the opportunity.
Thanks Kayla
Really am trying to make love of God, and others a main priority. Think I'm doing good with that often, but wonder since I continue to have problems with the past. I've gotten many Dx that were completely wrong from mental health, but did have symptoms of Tourette's from a young age. I've wondered recently a lot if it's spiritually related. In the past I was made to feel guilty over certain aspects, but I no longer believe them. I also have had wondered about death, and the after life before being told about them. Got the sense most people didn't think death might be better. This was all probably at three. I did ask just what death was, and was told about heaven. Which I falsely assumed my thoughts of wanting to die, would be more accepted. My mom was terrified, when I said I wished to go there right then and there. Thinking I knew I shouldn't have said anything back then. Still saddens me a lot to look back on. However, from there I was able to ask questions about God, and life. My mom even brought a book based off the bible with pictures, and easier vocabulary.
Despite studying, and what I believe to be understanding, and often times even improvement, seems I'm still stuck in my past. Have reached out a bit the Green Party, and know could probably get a job there, and have another opportunity from a personality profiling company that reached out to me. However, things haven't worked out. Stuff involving family, or the meantal health system seemed to have ruined past work opportunities. I don't want to start what I can't finnish. Even as a vollentear for the Green Party I worry about this. I do think theses could be opportunities to let people better experience the gift of free will, and help people live up to their full potential. However, I still feel stuck for many reasons. I'm hoping for a good discussion though, that will give me new perspective. Think I'm in need of that. Heard some things that may really help me too. Appreciate the opportunity.
Thanks Kayla