As some of you may have noticed there has been a number of feedback from admins going towards women on this forum, in order to expose as many addictions and intentions behind these posts as we can at this time.
I have decided to issue Cari with 2 AMBER STRIKES
1. Posting on the forum in facade 'wanting to know', engaging to ask questions without humility to want to know all Truth on the matter, staying invested in her own opinion about her intentions and wanting to maintain that facade of herself even when it is confronted.
2. And attempts to manipulate and/or control tactics to gain a feeling of power over situation or others while resisting feedback and remaining to be insincere
This disciplinary action is due to posting in the following thread:
viewtopic.php?f=16&t=723
Cari, first of all, I feel you have not posted your initial post with a sincere desire - an open heart to know the Truth on this matter. I feel you have posted still in addiction to want only people to comment what you wanted to hear from them. Thus already preventing any possibility of a feedback to be received.
The highlighted issues will be visible in my comments below and in the quotes.
The following shows that you do have some issues with humility and to be sincere enough to ask for help and stay open to that help. And you actually go on and act out the very emotion you describe, below, in the entire exchange.
You said:
“ I know that AJ has said previously that we only really need to pray to God, but at the same time there are also so many spirits that are trying to help us as well. I get very conflicted with this. Not because I disagree, but because I have been in a place for so long that I would not ask for help, that I really feel I need help now and am still judging myself for feeling that way. Judging myself still that I really shouldn't ask for help, I should be stronger than this. “
After you have received many suggestions from Maureen on the post subject, you show your ongoing resistance to be helped and an attempt to manipulate what you said in order to get what you wanted to hear from people, rather than see what has been suggested to you:
It is obvious here:
“I don't know that I really communicated what I was thinking.”
I know it is often difficult to write what we feel and often can be an issue with misunderstandings, however I do not feel this is the case here. I feel you use this comment to try to get your way over Maureen and to brush off anything that she has actually suggested to you, suggesting that she has misunderstood you.
You continue to ask:
“ The over cloaking and all the things that these spirits can do to influence us makes me feel like I want to communicate with the ones that are with me. Is that an acceptable thing to do?”
And while Maureen has suggested for you to look at possible addictions you may have in having this desire, you have reacted to such suggestions with a strong feeling that your intentions are actually pure.
However it is evident to me from your own post that you do have a self serving intention in this desire, meaning to help spirits in order to avoid your own emotional blocks and excuses to not feel your own emotions.
I will be direct with you on the question you have actually raised in your post and will say, that it is actually hypocritical, selfish of you and arrogant to think, that you can help spirits to progress or to leave you, when they have been attracted to you due to the feelings you have but you not yet had a desire to release, however you want to help them to feel theirs feelings while you are blocked to yours, do you see an issue with that and that it will never work in practice.
You say here:
“One told me that I did not want to know and the other one told me that it wouldn't let me move forward, because "I couldn't handle it" the answer that was to come.”
I am going to suggest to you, that what spirits were telling you, were your own actual blocks and beliefs about being emotionally overwhelmed. And once you will work through those issues, you would no longer have/need spirits who would tell you such a things.
And even if they were still around, they would be more willing to know then than any other time.
You state:
Here you are engaging in addiction with these spirits, again trying to void your own blocks, and actually emotionally asking their permission to feel your stuff. Which is a codependent relationship. So again, this is a good place for you to come back to and re-read your own comments.“I love you all and I am asking you to please be open and allow me to move forward with this, I really need to do this and I would appreciate it if you could support me and just love me through this. “
I personally feel that if we feel oppressed by spirits, besides the fact that they are there due to our emotions, I would pray to God to either show me the emotions why these spirits with me, or I would pray to God asking if I can have a clear space to feel, while realising that I will need to deal with the attraction with this spirits at some point in the near future as God will want me to see it all anyways.
What you have described you did with the spirits, while this may have made you feel like their oppression has stopped and maybe has worked once, which I can not comment about what emotions you were able to feel under such a circumstances.
I can tell you from my personal experience that this will not work with spirits who will do anything to get their addictions through your addictions met and will feel very angry with you about wanting to confront them, your addictions and people on earth with the same feelings as them.
They will not want to budge or relief you of their oppression, while there are things that they know they can get from being around you.
So do you see now that what Maureen has actually been trying to tell you is very valid and relevant. To look at your intentions behind wanting to engage with these spirits and telling yourself a story that you wish to do so out of love for them.
The following quote I feel especially outlines your resistance to look at your addictions and resistance for self reflection on this subject:
I feel some annoyance in this first sentence and a facade, and not a true gratitude on your part. So you are not honest when you say thank you to Maureen. Which highlights the addiction of wanting to appear nice and polite and retain your facade of not being triggered by anything that Maureen has told you.“Thank you again for continuing with me in this thread as it definitely has given me some things to consider about my intent, belief systems, communication in relationships, and so forth. I absolutely do mean it when I tell these spirits that I love them, no matter what condition that they are attracted to me in. “
This addiction only accelerates in your second sentence. When you insist to love spirits who oppress you and slow down your progression towards God.
I feel you have a big addiction to feel and appear like you love others. Which actually you may find out, will be another block in your progression towards God. As God only will respond to your true feelings and not a facade of being loving.
I can see now how this entire paragraph actually feels to me as a facade and not sincere statements. In fact the first sentence contradicts your second sentence to a large degree. You say that you will consider your belief systems and so forth, however want to insist on one of your addictions and false beliefs in the very second sentence.
And here:
In this comment your ongoing frustration with Maureen is more obvious. As it feels like you grew tired of your interaction with her, due to not having addictions met and having not desire to go anywhere near the emotions that have been brought up.“You have mentioned a lot of your personal things in this thread as well. I want you to know that I have read them and that what you are going through, discovering, sharing, and so on is important. At this time though other than what I just said, I do not feel that I want to make any additional comments about it.”
And I also feel that you felt some degree of condescension towards Maureen and her sharing with you therefore did not appreciate her honesty with you, quite contrary to what you said.
And finally the last bit:
Well Cari, I feel it is unloving of you to expect somebody who was honest and has spent hours of time to share with you some truth to want them do extra work, in the meantime you have remained in your facade and resistance and have been very dismissive of any gifts from Maureen, but now wanting Maureen to work harder to help you with it.“While I may not have addressed everything that you said or think that I should have responded to ,if you choose to would you please share with me where I actually expressed in this communication that I would not look into the the things that you had said?”
I have tried my best to outline the issues I have seen in your exchange with Maureen and give you some examples and my feedback about your comments. So I hope this is what you wanted.
I feel this disciplinary action may help you see the lack of sincerity and amount of resistance you have and desire for your facade and addictions to be maintained which all needs your attention and work at this time if you wish to grow closer to God.
All the best with this, if you choose to engage in the process of honest self reflection
Lena
edit:
I would just like to add a link to the feedback that Nicky has already provided to Cari at an earlier date, stating to her about the addiction to stay positive and cheering herself and others. Keeping the polite and positive facade.
Also about her resistance to humbly asking for help.
It is apparent that Cari has some feelings about being helped, and so far I have observed her either not ask for any help and march alone or ask for it in addiction, while not being able to actually receive it and investigate her fears and why being blocked to help.
You can view the full exchange here:
viewtopic.php?f=6&t=588