Rebellion and Resistance to God's Way
Posted: Wed Dec 02, 2015 9:23 am
I'm currently interested in looking at my own desire to rebel and have been looking at a post Mary wrote on her blog back in 2011 here:
http://mary.divinetruth.com/2011/07/07/ ... f-a-rebel/
This in particular is my focus at the moment -
I was just wondering if anyone had looked at this and wanted to contribute anything. I'm still at the stage of admitting (rather reluctantly) or getting used to the truth that I'm still actively rebelling (having had it pointed out to me) and resisting. I suppose I felt because I'm no longer doing the things I was doing in my teens and 20s that were a bit more obvious, that the feelings and habits and defiance have gone from me.
I am not recommending rebellion at all to anyone but to help me become more aware of these feelings that I have that rebellion is somehow cool and will help me - I'm putting together some songs on youtube that help me tune into that illusion of freedom that rebellion gives me. What's also great about some of the songs is that it's easy to feel the price of rebellion - the alienation, the damage to ourselves and others etc. If anyone wants to recommend any songs please do let me know.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=P ... gkXb9mZkV8
One film I saw recently that has been of help in seeing the price and possible causes of rebellion is Wild (2014) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2305051/.
http://mary.divinetruth.com/2011/07/07/ ... f-a-rebel/
This in particular is my focus at the moment -
The idea or feeling that rebellion and defiance is good and is the only way I'm going to survive in this world means a lot to me. It feels like it's my only chance of freedom I have if I can secretly (or not so secretly!) have my private world of opposition going on then I have a bit of control in my life.Instead I want rebellion, I want to hold onto the belief that I can only be liberated while I hold my heart back. I fear being depleted by the hooks I have, the sensitivity I feel; only I do not let myself feel it is the depletion of the past that I still carry that burdens me.
I was just wondering if anyone had looked at this and wanted to contribute anything. I'm still at the stage of admitting (rather reluctantly) or getting used to the truth that I'm still actively rebelling (having had it pointed out to me) and resisting. I suppose I felt because I'm no longer doing the things I was doing in my teens and 20s that were a bit more obvious, that the feelings and habits and defiance have gone from me.
I am not recommending rebellion at all to anyone but to help me become more aware of these feelings that I have that rebellion is somehow cool and will help me - I'm putting together some songs on youtube that help me tune into that illusion of freedom that rebellion gives me. What's also great about some of the songs is that it's easy to feel the price of rebellion - the alienation, the damage to ourselves and others etc. If anyone wants to recommend any songs please do let me know.
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=P ... gkXb9mZkV8
One film I saw recently that has been of help in seeing the price and possible causes of rebellion is Wild (2014) http://www.imdb.com/title/tt2305051/.