Blaming the Environment?
Posted: Mon Jan 18, 2016 3:53 pm
Wow, I could have a field day in this section catered just for me maybe?
I currently have an issue where I am in the game of blame and the reason is this.. I have not had an easy life to say the least, my story is long and complexed and the reason I mention this is because I am in a situation that I would like to share here.
I desperately want to leave my current environment and move elsewhere for a while. I have, through spirit and physical communication been labelled as an escapee who just wants to run from the world to invest my interests elsewhere and not take responsibility for my life where it is by always hoping to move to another country. Now this is my issue in regards to this. I do not know how the spirit world works entirely at all but to my understanding and speaking from experience I do know that the darker the state a person is in the less energy they seem to have to be able to travel far. Now the area I stay in, when I first moved here it was a hell hole, excuse the expression but that is the reality of it from my sense. I have been here over 10 years and it has been spirit attack since day 1. It has been a hard road. Now granted the place is not as dark as it was but due to having such a hard battle here for so long and for wanting just for my own sake to travel to another country, for my hobbies IE photography and also as I do know from being able to go overseas before that some locations just are less dense in shadow and suffering than others.. So yes maybe I do want to escape but I honestly am tired of taking responsibility for the constant attack directed at me in my immediate environment. I have lived elsewhere briefly and I do know the spiritual condition of certain areas just is better. I am highly sensitive and exposed to attack constantly here and I also get brought down a lot and end up in a dark state myself due to my own personal issues in addictions and of course resorting to darker emotions such as blame, resentment etc.. I just wonder what to do? Should I stay here forever and fight the good fight for the rest of my days and always have hard memories associated with this place to have to work through or start over elsewhere? I know the grass is greener where you water it but, good grass does not grow in poisoned soil and I am afraid I have run out entirely of good water to pour on it, to keep trying to purify it and in turn am just toxic now myself. Would it not be wise to stay in a new environment that would be more condusive to my recovery and healing from my barrage of personal issues and soul damage?
Another question I have if anyone reading this may know, has anyone seen a video where AJ and Mary speak to a suicide victim or discuss suicide and soul state of a suicidee and if they manage to progress from their location to a place of love?
I currently have an issue where I am in the game of blame and the reason is this.. I have not had an easy life to say the least, my story is long and complexed and the reason I mention this is because I am in a situation that I would like to share here.
I desperately want to leave my current environment and move elsewhere for a while. I have, through spirit and physical communication been labelled as an escapee who just wants to run from the world to invest my interests elsewhere and not take responsibility for my life where it is by always hoping to move to another country. Now this is my issue in regards to this. I do not know how the spirit world works entirely at all but to my understanding and speaking from experience I do know that the darker the state a person is in the less energy they seem to have to be able to travel far. Now the area I stay in, when I first moved here it was a hell hole, excuse the expression but that is the reality of it from my sense. I have been here over 10 years and it has been spirit attack since day 1. It has been a hard road. Now granted the place is not as dark as it was but due to having such a hard battle here for so long and for wanting just for my own sake to travel to another country, for my hobbies IE photography and also as I do know from being able to go overseas before that some locations just are less dense in shadow and suffering than others.. So yes maybe I do want to escape but I honestly am tired of taking responsibility for the constant attack directed at me in my immediate environment. I have lived elsewhere briefly and I do know the spiritual condition of certain areas just is better. I am highly sensitive and exposed to attack constantly here and I also get brought down a lot and end up in a dark state myself due to my own personal issues in addictions and of course resorting to darker emotions such as blame, resentment etc.. I just wonder what to do? Should I stay here forever and fight the good fight for the rest of my days and always have hard memories associated with this place to have to work through or start over elsewhere? I know the grass is greener where you water it but, good grass does not grow in poisoned soil and I am afraid I have run out entirely of good water to pour on it, to keep trying to purify it and in turn am just toxic now myself. Would it not be wise to stay in a new environment that would be more condusive to my recovery and healing from my barrage of personal issues and soul damage?
Another question I have if anyone reading this may know, has anyone seen a video where AJ and Mary speak to a suicide victim or discuss suicide and soul state of a suicidee and if they manage to progress from their location to a place of love?