Over the past few months on the forum, I have been observing how I resist offering assistance to folks, even though I feel at times I could be of help.
I finally responded to a post that Pierre made in the 'Assistance Section.' (Easier for me to respond to a man, because I've felt superior to men most of my life and terrified of women.) I read the post a hour before responding, then had this quickening feeling to respond, like a compulsion feeling. I noticed feelings of being in a hurry, like I was in competition with others on the forum, wanting to be the very next to respond. (It reminds me of school, when I desperately wanted the teacher to call on me first so I could get approval for knowing the answer.)
So, this morning, I've gotten some more clarity about what addictions this has exposed. I have this compulsion to feel knowledgeable (and therefore, superior) to others. (Most of my childhood, I was condescended to by my mom and belittled for my own abilities, so I have this HUGE need to feel smart, superior, and valuable.)
It's interesting because also mixed within all of these addictive feelings (yuck) is a sincere feeling of wanting to be of assistance to another, but unfortunately at this point, I can't even say what percentage of my impulse to help is a truly loving desire. Mostly, it feels clouded over by a need to feel valuable, superior and smart.

I trust that as I feel through these addictions and continue to release these unworthy feelings, the desire to be of assistance to others will be much more pure.
Hope this might help someone else.
Lisa